What should’ve, didn’t….
What shouldn’t have, did!
I jolted back to reality, A world of not a happy space; The words rang as a repeat, Some actions you cannot erase! Years of work Turned to dust, Though a bench-mark, Never resulted in infinite trust. The change has to be us, Nothing like an example within, 'Don't do it' is now a point to discuss, It's work, don't claim ownership! Passion and profession Both easy to merge, Yet my thought process is in question, Don't mix the two, they urge! Tried to change Outlook and mindset, Consider work, I averred, your stage All will follow: respect, progress & success. Naïve was I, honest too It is mine and the change is I, No one did care as was true, Sincere, reliable as qualities didn't apply! Sacrifice of conscientious Was always an easy choice, What for me was precious, Never found a similar voice! Decades go by Friends turn to foe, My choice of change did signify, That at 'traditions' alter, it was easy to let go! I am saddened When my process is faulty, they say; Is it wrong if for change to happen, Established norms I do away? Nothing is mine No philosophy here, My stay here is part of a design, The impact of me shan't disappear. Candor & glasnost Impartiality & probity, Values which came at a cost Revered initially, later ignored notably! Change has happened Where change was needed not, Lessons were learnt where unimagined, I remained the same, the rest not or in a knot! Wordless and silent Left without an argument, The past shows people tyrant, The seal on the fate of 'change', permanent.
I came, I wrote, I published……for my own satisfaction and to prove to myself that I could write, and I knew the English language!! Everything else was a bonus!
So……..I shall change and tweak my rules to deal with the big, bad, mean world but shall not change ME. But young son who was enumerating my past experiences with some educators and schools and was critical of my way of working for them by throwing all established norms to the wind and then they discarding me into it instead, rolled his eyes in exasperation.
Disbelief ? Well, that fuels most reactions about me!
And I am not complaining!!!
Change? What? Who? When? Where? How?