The Burden of my Thoughts!

Deciphering that Thought Code…….

Scenario 1:

I wake up before my alarm of 0500 hours and the urge is to slip out of bed, gobble up my fenugreek and chia seeds with warm lemon water, make myself a hot cup of tea and step outside to be with the breeze and the birds. While I execute all this my mind thinks thoughts of all kinds. I remember waking up like this when young along with my cousin and slip out while everyone else slept inside and roam the vast 5-acre Dad’s magical property. I try to imagine what it would feel like if I had someone like Mom to sit and talk to while I sipped tea. The rustling leaves remind me of Dad’s place in New Zealand during autumn. Then there are random thoughts of “Gosh, hope I have not wasted too much time for I have my routine chores to do” after which I hear my turkeys and my thoughts jump to making sure they come out systematically one by one otherwise they would fight for dominance, so I call out early morning instructions to my guard constable. The bright morning sun and orange sky make me wonder why I was alive another day. Should I be thankful? Maybe. What would it be like throughout the day? Busy, is what my mind settles for.

Scenario 2:

Looking out for time to settle down with just myself and my work, I realize it is past noon and lunch time is fast approaching. I must carry down food for my in-laws, take a quick see at the fag end work in the kitchen, check up on my rabbit pets, change the all-out liquids in three machines, fill up soap and basmati rice from my larder, Oh, even the toilet paper rolls and also the Comfort fabric conditioner and Harpic had their last drops squeezed out a while ago, then someone calls out for me asking me to see and tell if the placement of the pots was done well and as if all this wasn’t enough, as I step out to see why my guinea fowls are screeching  at my kitchen door on the left, I spy the tulsi growing lush and green and am tempted to pick out some for the evening tea and my rabbits treat snack too, when I chance upon a fleeing snake just a few inches from me. Kaput goes my time or my wish for my time. The rest of the morning melts away into the afternoon as I get the overgrown grass and the wildly growing passion fruit and bottle gourd pruned and the trees clipped a bit from my windows. The camera caught the dancing cobra near the tulsi plants seconds before I stepped out – Bless my guinea fowls who were making a ruckus due to the slithering guest, no doubt. My speaking to them for those ten seconds more, led to the unwanted guest scamper off at lightning speed.

Aha, over-thinking, some would pronounce. An empty mind, others would cluck, disapprovingly. Either would be far off the mark. For I term this as my signature to being ‘alive’. Yet it is at our peril that we think thoughts, for the burden of those is far too heavy to carry along.


Thoughts make us aware.

Thoughts make situations come alive.

Thoughts help us dream.

Thoughts remind us of memories.

Thoughts are the bedrock of ideas.


 Thoughts can weigh us down.

Thoughts can burden us with realizations. Thoughts can be a drain on emotions.

Thoughts can make us liable for our inactions.

Thoughts can load us with remorse.

Thoughts can saddle us with guilt.

Every scenario and situation and set-up and consequence generates thoughts. The power lies in thinking above them and beyond.

MY TIPS to myself to knock-out the burdening Punch of Thoughts:

DIVERT, DIVERT, DIVERT – I negate their crippling effect by diverting my mind into things which suit my mood – A book to read, some interesting designing to do, redoing my room, settling my cupboard – just doing anything, even if absent mindedly!

READ, READ, READ – Anything which I can lay my hands on. It puts up a ‘No Vacancy’ sign on my mind and then I am drifting away with the thoughts of others. A refreshing change!

BAKE/COOK/KNIT/CROCHET/GARDEN – I dust up even the most remote activity I want/can do in the present which even if it seems like a chore, will make my mind do something else. A therapeutic instant!

QUIET MINDFULNESS – I sit quietly by myself, listening to the sounds of the outside (not my inside: NO!!). The traffic, the vendor shouting, the birds, my turkeys, my maids, the neighbors. It changes the mood!

LISTEN to MUSIC – Always calms me down, takes me to the film or any moment which is not burdening. It gets different!

DIAL A FRIEND – Always helps for even if she/he wants to talk of something else I always make sure the conversation stirs towards whatever topic I want to share my angst about. Aha! It is let out!

WRITE, WRITE, WRITE – It always leads to the muddle clearing up and all the fuss seems manageable and a much-ado-about-nothing. Well, often. On other days, the lovely comments for a from-a-heart post leads to a smile, an acceptance. Situations can be bad, dealing with them makes us the Stars!

LETTING THE WATER PASS – I literally let it be. When a day or too passes by and I have occupied myself into something and a day becomes another and then the day after, the burden seems bearable and easy to lug around. An easy solution!

Every time I am hit by my thought’s tornado, I try my best to board-up for that Level 3 tsunami situation when all hell shall break lose. I read and decipher my emotional quotient these days and I know the feelings which precede that tearful situation. I steel up and am ready!!

After many an episode, I have decided to take the bull by the horns and ride it instead of being battered by it. Let my thoughts bear the burden of their weight upon my mind. I shall think them but not let them make me think them. Too much.

The turmoil of the emotions and feelings which make up the ‘Thoughts’ is like a storm of reactions to events past, present & future.

Image courtesy : Me; On one of my travels back home this storm was building up over Malaysia, fascinating and scary at the same time, much like the ‘thoughts storm’.

Memories and thoughts aren’t made in isolation – there are solid bedrock of experiences behind each. My travels to home are made with and about many things – my bag with the cutest travellers on board is my huge mood lifter! Sigh! I hope to be able to visit home again soon and then the thoughts demon shall melt away too.

What’s on our thoughts platter? Several emotions, a wide range of feelings and moments and misses and near misses, people with us and not with us along with the daily routine garnishes which may or may not enhance the taste buds of dealing with the enigma called LIFE. Yet nonetheless, we savour the sweet and the bitter, the sour and magical and bumble along on a full stomach of outcomes, opinions, attitudes, faith, tolerance, sincerity, deceit, decadence, damaged hearts and mind.

Image courtesy : Me; The lip-smacking Sea food platter on Rottenest island, Australia

Learning to find my way through the labyrinth of overwhelming emotions, myriad thoughts and the feeling that “of all that I would and could have done differently if I knew that I had a whole year and a half” and counting before me “in which I was not going to be stepping out” – Oh so, so true!!!

Image courtesy: My brother near the Southern tip of what I know call home: New Zealand.

Quote courtesy: Dr. Usha Naik

35 thoughts on “The Burden of my Thoughts!

  1. Yes, overthinking becomes sometimes fantasy for us and sometimes it leads towards day dreaming too. But most of the time it takes us towards anxiety and that I really hate. I also overthink and day dream many times but then again bring back my awareness to this present moment. Liked your writing style and the points you mentioned to do as time pass works when overthinking comes.

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  2. Priyanka Joshi June 30, 2021 — 7:27 pm

    Free-flowing writing with a tsunami of thoughts! People often label it as overthinking, but thoughts are thoughts, memories, overwhelming, pushy, harsh, emotional and what not…but you have all your coping mechanisms ready to fight your tornado of thoughts 🙂

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    1. Thanks Priyanka…yes learning each day…sometimes it gets difficult but I am a fighter!


  3. Our thoughts certainly shape our future, which is why we have to be mindful about them. You write from teh heart, Anjali. Let this be your USP always, as your words touch our heart.

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    1. Thanks Mayuri…means a lot!!😍


  4. Yes, to get out of the burden of your thoughts do whatever keeps you happy. That can be writing, reading, speaking to friends or just make a solo trip. This is such a lovely post.

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    1. Thanks for taking time out to read…..


  5. Love the way you have shared your thoughts. Admire the way you say you control your thoughts to read, write, listen to music or do daily chores.I wish I had control over my thoughts and steer myself into doing something constructive. I do try but having lived alone for 17 years now I am losing it.


  6. I do daydream and it does get me carried away but not so far that I have issues. Your tips on how to handle it are apt.

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  7. Managing your thoughts is an important life skill…for some reason i didnt know of it until a few years back…this is something i am going to teach my children…

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  8. Yes, managing our thoughts and controlling them is a skill. Your tips to manage them are brilliant. Thanks for sharing such a nice post.


  9. I loved reading your post . Putting your thoughts into the right direction is very important. Ibdo day dream and then I feel guilty of the time that I have wasted. I have started reading and it has really helped to control my wandering thoughts.

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  10. The turmoil of the emotions and feelings which make up the ‘Thoughts’ is like a storm of reactions to events past, present & future. Loved this statement. These thoughts are truly a storm which create havoc in the present. Writing and music sometimes helps me drown out that pent up emotions though they occasionally do blow out


  11. There is a thin line between thinking and overthinking, sometimes we fall off the line and brain has to uplift the burden. I liked the solution you presented in the second half of the post, listening to music and reading has been my biggest rescue to the overthinking and must tell you it keeps me sane.


  12. Thoughts are very powerful. They create emotions so if one needs to be Happy and calmer , one needs to learn to control over your thoughts, be mindful of thinking. Sometimes when My thoughts are really strong it doesn’t leave me infact I dream about it too. Great post from the heart and it resonate with me.


  13. Dwelling on things that we have no control over or something done in the past only brings us pain / sadness. We should do what we love and us that to divert our minds to more pleasant thoughts.

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  14. I loved how you let your mind speak through free-flow writing. There seem to be no regulations, no barriers while you write.
    Overthinking kills and I’ve stopped doing it long back. Diverting attention to anything else is effective.

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    1. Thanks Aditi – one can’t feel alive if one can’t shake things up a bit!!😉

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  15. Our thoughts manage the way if life and we have to make sure it’s wired in the right way. Mindfulness definitely is. Great way .

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  16. I loved what you wrote. It is perfectly okay to have thoughts, it is the negative thoughts we should learn to handle. It reminds me of what my wellness instructor once said. Don’t force your mind to go blank. Let the thoughts come in, acknowledge them, and then let them go.

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  17. I am so glad to have discovered your blog thanks Blogaberry Dazzle, Anjali. I love your writing style and your posts often have me nodding my head in agreement. This one is no different. So true, thoughts make us alive. Let’s not allow them to burden us. Easier said than done, though. 🙂

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    1. Thanks Ritu….Its such a cute and from the heart appreciation….😍


  18. Loved the way you say you control your thoughts and try to read, write, listen to music or do daily chores. I also try to keep myself busy writing, reading or watching movies to not overthink.

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    1. Always help to keep things in check!!

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  19. Anything beyond the parameter is not good what I think and truly believe in, whether it is the flow of thoughts or living n memories. You have perfectly listed down the various modes to keep ourselves purposively engage rather than dwelling in the tsunami of thoughts.

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  20. While reading your post, I remembered the song “Memories Memories”. Its exactly like that. Some people just call us as over thinkers, but I tell that they don’t know how to relive different moments or enjoy them.

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    1. Oh really? Shall look up this song definitely!

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  21. yashilabarnwal July 4, 2021 — 8:47 pm

    Yeah it’s true that Overthinking spoils our life and the happiness also… We humans are spoilers of our happiness and present and future life

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  22. I love your writing. I wish I can control my thoughts. Sometimes, I am able to divert myself but many a times it’s hard to control. Loved the way you express your thoughts.

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  23. I overthink so much. I keep replaying a scenerio in my mind and create multiple outcomes for it. Or sometimes just make up new scenes. To stop my over reactive mind from going crazy I started blogging.

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  24. Monidipa Dutta July 6, 2021 — 2:00 pm

    Some far-out fantasies can result in real-life actions and solutions. Second, overthinking is good if it goes into planning.

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